Blurred Vision

The focus

Centred in loneliness
Unchosen role
Circumstantially inherited

No fault, no blame
To lay.
It happens
Understood
Though unaware of understanding

Learn to live
Focus to focus
Forgetting that the next
Is not so sharp

Suicidal Thoughts

Life could be simple
Why make it hard?
Why torture your mind?
And jump without looking
Into it

Life might be easy
You push too far
Move too fast
Leave yourself behind
In haste

Life should be gentle
You live ferocious
You bite but can’t chew
Then face the flood
A waste

None so Deaf

The line is busy
The phone is off
Headspace full
No sign of life

But if it wasn't me calling
If it wasn't my voice
Would you hear the wisdom
Would you turn a light on

I never saw
I never knew
I never asked
Where's the real you

Time has passed
People changed
But the heart of the matter
Is still the same

When will you hear me                  
When will you respond
How much pain
Till you sing His song

Under Attack

Here he comes
Surfing my thoughts
Negative tide
Swamping what I'm taught      

But I won't listen
I won't acquiesce
I'm Your child
I am truly blessed

The grin on his face
Makes my skin crawl
Thanks to Your grace
This is not my brawl
       
You may be silent
I may be wrong        
I've made mistakes
But I can move on

Send in Your tidal wave
Wash him off his board
Fill my thoughts with grace
I will heed Your word

BIC

How can I reach
When I don't understand
How can I teach
When I haven't learned
How long must I seek
How long will they turn

Only You can see
The picture from above
Only you can make
A masterpiece in love      

Bring them home
Only You can
Open their eyes
To Your amazing plan

I love You
I love them
Once it was enough
It will be once again

Take a Stand

I will not wallow
I will not weep
Though this rut I follow
Is wide and deep

I will rise on Your wings
I will stand with You
I will speak life
I will speak Truth

Time and again I've been this way
I am Your friend,  in Your hand I stay
No to the dark thoughts
No to despair
I have been blood bought
You really care

What Happened

What happened to your life
That started out so well
Such a pretty baby
But now no-one could tell

You’ve fallen for the lies
Trying to make it on your own
But inside something dies
When you think of all you’ve known

No more innocence
Tossed away so gladly
No more surprise
At being treated badly

But someone loves you
And not like the rest
Someone wants to heal you
And He's the very best

Turn and surrender
Let Him give you back the years
Turn to Jesus
Let Him take away your fears
All your fears

This song "What Happened" (listen on Youtube) was written for the prostitutes in Cuba St when I was living in Wellington. The music for it was written by Ross Brennan.
Since that time I have seen so many other young, and sometimes not so young, people throwing their lives away chasing things that ultimately don't satisfy and end in pain. My hope is that this song may reach even one of them.